Friday, January 23, 2009

FOM SOLO: Day 24 Conversations with God and invitations

The room is empty, except for me. 

Stillness. 

Except for light traffic noise, it is quiet. 

Solitude.

The slight overcast and blinds block out any brightness, yet allow enough light to create a beautiful day.  As I sit and wait, and allow the stillness and solitude to linger, I focus on the calm and let my imagination quiet the mind. 

As I sit, a whisper. 

Request and a declaration in the same. 

Declaration of His love, and a request with heavy implications. 

In one ear he whispers, "You are my beloved,  believe you are my beloved."

 Then he shifts to the other ear and whispers, "Can I?"

"Can I join you in life?" 

"Will you talk about your decision with me?"

"You are my beloved."

"Can I be with you at work?"

"Know that I love you."

"Stuck in traffic? Can I wait with you there?"

"Beloved."

"Invite me."

I am humbled by His love, each declaration pours into my soul and quenches thirst of a dry and cracked heart. Each time, He asks me to invite Him into my life, I meet with glad surrender, and relief of the burdens. 

Then He asks, "What about there."

My sin. The dark places in my heart. Places of bitterness, and lust. Greed and jealousy. 

The shame seems unbearable. 

"Beloved, I love you and I want to be with you there, in those times as well." 

"Beloved, I am Healer, I am Restorer, will you invite me there too?"

Peace. 

Reluctance. 

Surrender. 

I pray that this conversation continues. I pray that I continue to invite Christ into every area of my life. I pray I can be freed from a life oppressing the Healer into 15 minutes a day.

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